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15 May, 2021 | 5/15/2021 11:12:00 pm | 0Comment

Hola this is latest selfie i got 2021

       Hey earthlings its been sooo sooo long I did not update anything here. 3 years and half or 4 years maybe? Nah I'll pass that. So now I got some free time and I feels like I want to write something here to rant about whats happening in my life. Btw 2020 sucks! With covid19 and all. I stopped working at H&M (oh btw I resigned from starbucks in 2019 & continue working at H&M Avenue K). Meanwhile PKP I resigned and applied Degree *just trying my luck actually*. Then suprised! I got into UPM, Serdang. Im so happy about that and now Im in semester 2 Year 1. Cant wait to end it soon in July. Phew~ what a long journey. So degree life is fun, relax, more santai than Diploma days. Good environment good friends. Idk i just loved being there. 

       For my semester 1, suprisingly I got gooooood result beyond my expectation actually. I got 3.66!! Cool isnt? First time in my life I got this higher cgpa. I worked hard for it, worth all those tears, stress, mental breakdown during online class. But I promised to do better for semester 2. So I can get my scholarship. I applied for JPA. Hope I get it and ease my degree journey. Not going to burden my parents for expenses, printing money, foods and etc. I discovered my mental health was not good last year. My anxiety everyday to wake up and worried about assignments, getting into zoom/google meet. Due dates to catch up. Also my anger issues worsen until now. Small matters makes me mad. Itu salah ini salah. I dont like loud sound. I mean I wish to shut everything into peace. Mom's voice for example sometimes it makes my mind messed up. I hate that. But I still struggling and controlling it now. Perhaps it will be better. Not going to talk deep about my mental health. Moving on to hmm about what huh? Oh my love life. 

        Love life is going on. Still counting to 4th years anniversary on 2nd September 2021. He's doing good, kind to me, helpful and many more. I thanked God for created him to exist in my life. To cheer up when I'm sad. Brighten up my sad days. Eventho sometimes he might be annoying. Make things that I dislike. Make me mad. Overall he's a good guy. Couldnt find someone better or good than him. I sent cookies on his birthday last January on 24th. Also I gave him kemeja from Muji. And he likes it. Not much just that I can afford for the time being. Hope he's going to appreciate it and love it as much as I loved him. Ups and downs of course happened in out relationship. Who doesnt right? Breakup in December 2020. He went all the way Klang-Pontian just to show how much I meant to him. Thats sweet btw. He cried. Begged me not to leave. You know my mental health not okay and he just caused scene. Buat hal la senang cerita. When I took time off, reflect myself, wanting some space. Know what he did? He went for camping with his friends. Having so much fucking fun. There's girls and boys too. What makes me really broken into piece was he sat beside a girl. He said "that the only empty seat". I mean u can change the place with others right? It just u want it or not. Also duduk gelap-gelap dekat camping site sebelah perempuan. Dekat gilaaaa like bijjjj who am I again? He also repost this one girl insta story. Reasons was "dia suruh repost sbb kitorg dah janji kalau tak dia marah". I mean? Oh am I a joke? Is her feelings is more important than me huh? R u really need to listen to her? Bullshit sial. Arghhhh stress thinking about it again. 

        Next, about parents hmm I dont know why, but I smelled unfair relation between siblings u know. I feels like my mum loved angah more. What he did was okay and if i did the same thing she went !@#$% *macam kita ni buat salah teruk la*. If angah keluar ke she will pesan "bawak kereta elok-elok dik". While me what I got was "jangan balik lambat lak". Thats it. And when it comes to going back home she said to angah "Adik dah balik? Hujan ke? Dah makan?". If me went like "Asal balik lambat?" or maybe just ignored my existance. Like mom Im here? U dont see me didnt u? Oh ya cause u've blinded by angah's existance. This raya she said thank you to angah for looking after her and all. While my turn she never thank me as Im not the one who help her cook, push her wheelchair at hospital, help her up when she fall on the floor, not me who lift heavy stuffs eventhough I tak larat angkat barang berat. I was the one who threw the rubbish away instead my brother. Dahla malam-malam and sometimes ada lelaki dekat luar. She forced me to pakai seluar instead of asking my brother to throw it. Sucks right? After all, I dont know why Im the one who need to mengalah in adik-beradik. Kena mengalah mengalah mengalah mengalah. In all aspects. Im the only daughter and Im the last child. Wheres the fair? I need to contact my brothers if they didnt contact me. Semua aku lah kena start dulu, kena jaga kena kenang kena appreciate. Diorang? AKU ANAK PEREMPUAN AKU SORANG JE PULAK TU. Kenapa aku yang kena berkorban banyak benda, kena mengalah semua hal. Bukan itu tanggungjawab seorang anak lelaki ke untuk jaga adik perempuan dia. Bantu adik perempuan dia. Haih penat lah toxic family macam ni. 

           I think thats long enough of my sharing updated life now. Will be back when Im free to write again. See u soon


Xoxo,

pojimoji


 
Hola this is latest selfie i got 2021

       Hey earthlings its been sooo sooo long I did not update anything here. 3 years and half or 4 years maybe? Nah I'll pass that. So now I got some free time and I feels like I want to write something here to rant about whats happening in my life. Btw 2020 sucks! With covid19 and all. I stopped working at H&M (oh btw I resigned from starbucks in 2019 & continue working at H&M Avenue K). Meanwhile PKP I resigned and applied Degree *just trying my luck actually*. Then suprised! I got into UPM, Serdang. Im so happy about that and now Im in semester 2 Year 1. Cant wait to end it soon in July. Phew~ what a long journey. So degree life is fun, relax, more santai than Diploma days. Good environment good friends. Idk i just loved being there. 

       For my semester 1, suprisingly I got gooooood result beyond my expectation actually. I got 3.66!! Cool isnt? First time in my life I got this higher cgpa. I worked hard for it, worth all those tears, stress, mental breakdown during online class. But I promised to do better for semester 2. So I can get my scholarship. I applied for JPA. Hope I get it and ease my degree journey. Not going to burden my parents for expenses, printing money, foods and etc. I discovered my mental health was not good last year. My anxiety everyday to wake up and worried about assignments, getting into zoom/google meet. Due dates to catch up. Also my anger issues worsen until now. Small matters makes me mad. Itu salah ini salah. I dont like loud sound. I mean I wish to shut everything into peace. Mom's voice for example sometimes it makes my mind messed up. I hate that. But I still struggling and controlling it now. Perhaps it will be better. Not going to talk deep about my mental health. Moving on to hmm about what huh? Oh my love life. 

        Love life is going on. Still counting to 4th years anniversary on 2nd September 2021. He's doing good, kind to me, helpful and many more. I thanked God for created him to exist in my life. To cheer up when I'm sad. Brighten up my sad days. Eventho sometimes he might be annoying. Make things that I dislike. Make me mad. Overall he's a good guy. Couldnt find someone better or good than him. I sent cookies on his birthday last January on 24th. Also I gave him kemeja from Muji. And he likes it. Not much just that I can afford for the time being. Hope he's going to appreciate it and love it as much as I loved him. Ups and downs of course happened in out relationship. Who doesnt right? Breakup in December 2020. He went all the way Klang-Pontian just to show how much I meant to him. Thats sweet btw. He cried. Begged me not to leave. You know my mental health not okay and he just caused scene. Buat hal la senang cerita. When I took time off, reflect myself, wanting some space. Know what he did? He went for camping with his friends. Having so much fucking fun. There's girls and boys too. What makes me really broken into piece was he sat beside a girl. He said "that the only empty seat". I mean u can change the place with others right? It just u want it or not. Also duduk gelap-gelap dekat camping site sebelah perempuan. Dekat gilaaaa like bijjjj who am I again? He also repost this one girl insta story. Reasons was "dia suruh repost sbb kitorg dah janji kalau tak dia marah". I mean? Oh am I a joke? Is her feelings is more important than me huh? R u really need to listen to her? Bullshit sial. Arghhhh stress thinking about it again. 

        Next, about parents hmm I dont know why, but I smelled unfair relation between siblings u know. I feels like my mum loved angah more. What he did was okay and if i did the same thing she went !@#$% *macam kita ni buat salah teruk la*. If angah keluar ke she will pesan "bawak kereta elok-elok dik". While me what I got was "jangan balik lambat lak". Thats it. And when it comes to going back home she said to angah "Adik dah balik? Hujan ke? Dah makan?". If me went like "Asal balik lambat?" or maybe just ignored my existance. Like mom Im here? U dont see me didnt u? Oh ya cause u've blinded by angah's existance. This raya she said thank you to angah for looking after her and all. While my turn she never thank me as Im not the one who help her cook, push her wheelchair at hospital, help her up when she fall on the floor, not me who lift heavy stuffs eventhough I tak larat angkat barang berat. I was the one who threw the rubbish away instead my brother. Dahla malam-malam and sometimes ada lelaki dekat luar. She forced me to pakai seluar instead of asking my brother to throw it. Sucks right? After all, I dont know why Im the one who need to mengalah in adik-beradik. Kena mengalah mengalah mengalah mengalah. In all aspects. Im the only daughter and Im the last child. Wheres the fair? I need to contact my brothers if they didnt contact me. Semua aku lah kena start dulu, kena jaga kena kenang kena appreciate. Diorang? AKU ANAK PEREMPUAN AKU SORANG JE PULAK TU. Kenapa aku yang kena berkorban banyak benda, kena mengalah semua hal. Bukan itu tanggungjawab seorang anak lelaki ke untuk jaga adik perempuan dia. Bantu adik perempuan dia. Haih penat lah toxic family macam ni. 

           I think thats long enough of my sharing updated life now. Will be back when Im free to write again. See u soon


Xoxo,

pojimoji


 



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