can you guys imagine having a bestfriend which was a boy. being friends for 1 year plus and he have feelings towards you since you were friends. he managed to keep his feelings to himself rather than telling you. and he seems fine looking at you with someone else. falling in love with someone else for more than 6months. he was there but you did not even noticed him. he puts so much efforts to win your heart but you just cant see it with your pair of eyes. can you guys imagine how loyal he was? shit im so lucky. im glad having a best boy friend in my life. i can believe that he was so loyal waiting for me. did not even lose hope in his life trying to win my heart. i am so lucky. i wont even left him behind for someone else. i was just hoping the relationship longlasts. i dont want to waste again my tears my feelings towards someone which i loved will all my heart. im so sickk! i dont want to be hurt again. 

i dont know where to share all my thoughts and feelings. that is why i wrote here. to express everything. wishing he read it but nevermind it such a shame hahaha. once i told him to wait until the end of diploma years. because idk why but i felt like "lets we focus on our priority first. the rest later". so yeah he said he can wait for it. we also make a promise. all we have to do know. stay loyal to each other. communicate is important. since im with him we did not even having a fight. i mean yeah we enjoyed ourself. like BESTFRIENDS! talking shitt and do whatever we wanted to do. i just love the way he was. didnt asked much for it. just i know where my heart was. same goes to him. stay happy and hidup kena chill. 

goodnight everyone. oh one more thing! we watched Kingsman today!!!! it was hella fun guys. SO LIT. i should watch the first one before watch this one. but nvm IM HAPPY TODAYYY!!!! im going to sleep. it was a long day today. Im tired sames goes to him. so goodnight again!! 

adios xoxo,

pojimoji